So I've been doing alot of thinking about myself lately. I've been having some expansive experiences--the value of which is that they help me define myself more precisely. I've decided, for instance, that while I'm submissive and femme, I'm also independent. Submissive is an interesting adjective because I don't want to imply that I am masochistic or subservient. I don't feel pleasure from pain and I don't grovel and call anyone "Master." Recently, some guy asked me, "Whose you're master." To which I replied, "Me. I am the master of my fate, the captain of my soul." I believe this to be true. I do like hanging out with agressive, egotistical men. I like Reformed bad boys who are also mama's boys or fathers themselves. I'm more comfortable in the role of tease or come-hither rather than taking the leading role. And, I'm a pleaser. That's not to say that I don't care for my own pleasure--I am a sensate girl and want to live more of my life immersed in the connection between my body/brain/spirit. I want to be warm and open and giving--I just don't want to be taken advantage of in the wrong ways.